Saturday, October 1, 2011

More CaNcEr!

Yes...there is a very long, upsetting story behind it, but pathology came back yeterday and there was more cancer hidden in scar tissue.  They found a good sized tumor on my uteris wall, but knowing the Dr.didn't see this means that we have no idea what else is out there either.  It makes me VERY nervous.  Based on the size, it would appear that this tumor survived the heated chemo the first time and grew in scar tissue.  My abodmen is FULL of scar tissue...so I have to admit,  I am brokenhearted at the thought of what else might be looming.

Also, the reason I did this surgery was to do a needed hysterectomy , eliminate the pain I've been n the last months, remove any cancer found and most importantly...DO THE HEATED CHEMO...which is an amazing resource and has the potential to save my life.  I'm so grateful fo the hysterectomy, because that is how they found this hidden tumor.  But I am disheartened that the dr. missed the opportunity to make a big difference in my battle with this pesky disease.  Thanks for your continued prayers and thoughts!  I continue to feel so blessed despite the unending trials. Our life experience is largely a matter of our perspective, isn't it?  My process remains...each time a new trial is dumped on you...find the silver lining, no matter how small or descrete.  There will ALWAYS be one.  I am going to go find mine right now.  Thanks again to each of you!

13 comments:

gregandlaura said...

NOOO! Shanda we both were so relieved to hear the post surgery news! We have been following you this whole time and our prayers are with you! You are amazing!!!

Laurene said...

I LOVE your perception of your world, Shanda. I too will look for the silver lining. Thank you so much for sharing these details at a time that I know is extremely difficult for you. We will be at Alicia's and Brendan's the weekend of the Primary Program in their ward (October 16). Arriving Friday and leaving Monday. I'm hoping we get a chance for a few moments with you!

Shabby Creations said...

Shanda, I am so sorry to read this post. Life seems so unfair at times. Put on your armor and FIGHT!! Fight hard and dirty. Our prayers and thoughts are with you.

reverseoreo said...

sorry for the bad news my heart just sank down to my knees. I will be praying for you. I will try and find the silver lining also.

Halfords said...

Shanda! I am so sorry! This just doesn't seem fair! We are praying for you and your family!!

AKA Jane Random said...

Shanda, I've been following your blog for awhile now and just want you to know I'm praying for you in Alabama. You have a beautiful spirit!

Unknown said...

My dear friend - please stay strong and focused on gaining your strength back to continue the fight! We are always thinking of you and have you in our prayers.

chesam said...

Your optimism is amazing! Continue to fight and the lord will continue to bless you amidst these trials. Lots of love and prayers for you and your family.

Andrea J said...

Love you Shanda. You can do it.

Lexie said...

What???? I can't believe this, what a setback. I'm hoping your silver lining is truly made of gold or platinum or something even more amazing, like you!

Laurene said...

I just have to state "Ditto" to Lexie's comment. VERY well put!!!

PalsRWe said...

What an amazing positive attitude you have, "You sexy Beast" That made me laugh out loud.. Love It... Sending Prayers for the comfort that you and your sweet family need right now. And that the doctors thoughts, exams, and treatments with be guided by our Heavenly Father. We Love You.. I am waiting for the day that I can watch you on Extreme Couponing. Those were the good old days at "TOPS" in Cleveland. :)

Anne Higgins said...

Shanda I just came upon your blog, and read it all the way back.
How are you doing now?

I am a three year cancer survivor of Stage IIb cervical cancer... had a terrible time , too, with the radiation... very very sick, diarrhea out of control, major dehydration ,etc. I'm better now but have radiation damage... your experience with the bowel perforation is a real cautionary tale for me.

Anyway - I am praying for you.

Blessings

Anne