Monday, August 16, 2010

Some answers, but more questions!

I spent the day at the cancer ctr again today awaiting results from the pathology of the fluid they extracted from my abdomen on Friday night.  They aren't all back yet, but so far there has been no sign of malignant cancer in the fluid...which is a relief. 

The only problem is, that there are many other ways that the cancer could manifest, and the Dr. is worried there might be a tumor blocking the flow to/from my liver.  It could also be that my organs are just worn out...and are weeping.  (I would explain that more like crying... they have been through so much this year!)  The Dr. found that I am having a systemic histamine reaction as well...and that my blood pressure has skyrocketed even more.  My vision is now so blurry that I can hardly focus well enough to see anything.  I don't have to look while typing, so I am hoping this makes sense, because I can't see the screen.

I have to go get drained agan at 9am and have yet another ct scan in the afternoon.  Another day of fasting, poking, waiting, trying to maintain a calmness...and trying not to fall apart.  I look about 5 months pregnant right now...and it is so strange, because it just appeared one day.  My poor body...

9 comments:

lavidaesuncarnaval said...

Mom and I fasted and prayed for you yesterday. We love you and your family so much.

Laurene said...

I will be in the temple in the morning and fasting for you.

Meg said...

Love and prayers Shanda!! We think abt you all the time and are always checking for updates. In case you can't read this b/c of your blurry vision, we are sending some serious cross-state love vibes to you right now.

Tracey said...

Hang in there Shanda, you can do this!!! I know you are beyond exhausted and have been asked to go through so much already but this proves to you how strong you are and proves to you that you can do this. You've come so far!! We will be praying that you feel that calmness you desire and that you get some answers soon.

Aly G said...

Shanda, We are thinkin of ya & hope you are hangin in there! We can't imagine all you are going through, but just know everyone is praying for you and that this will all work out!!! Why is your vision blurry? You are amazing and we just love you! Stay tough!!! Luvs!

Patricia said...

I am with you kid.

MetroParks said...

I think of you so often and send prayers like so many others. You are amazingly vibrant and are going to kick this thing.
Go Shanda!!!

Renee' Dezember said...

I have being praying and fasted well over 24 hours for you!

Auna Leigh said...

shanda- i wish i were there!!! even if i could just paint your toenails, sing you a diddy or remind you of our wacky husbands! I don't know why I'm writing this, it's not like you're reading it. Oh well, i guess one day you will. take care of that poor body of yours. when you were here you were fine, maybe you need a little more of some Boise time. aka fabulous friday! 2nd weekend on Oct.!!! call me: 559-7211