Yesterday I spent the whole day again at the hospital getting another ct scan and getting the fluid draned again out of my abdomen. It had returned very quickly from when I had it drained on Friday night. I should take a picture and post it. It truly looks like I am 5 months pregnant and is hard as a rock. The doctors are all stumped and can't figure out the cause. Drainig the fluid hurts BAD...and I think I will lose it if I have to do it again this week. I don't want to look or feel like this for the rest of my life. I pray an answer will come soon and that there is a solution.
I am also unsure if the doctors will be continuing my chemo or not because of all of the adverse side effects and reactions that are occurring. I will find out more next tuesday when I have another appointment.
I am reminded very strongly of the things that matter in life...and the things that just DON'T! My hair and my body for example. I would gladly trade them both for good health! I have sacrificed so much already but would still give more just to feel good and be able to return to my regular activities. (laundry, cooking, taking care of my girls, being a taxi for practices, etc.)