My daughter Addie running as fast as she could into my room to put her arms around my neck to tell me something the second she woke up in the morning...She said, "MOM, I dont know how you love ME so BIG when I don't eat my food and I don't always listen." That might not sound like much to you, but I had one of my most cherished conversations and watched my 3 year old start to grasp my unconditional LOVE for her. She is a deep thinker...and I love her morning ephiphanies!
Then I went to chemo. I was there from 9-5:45 for my infusion, appt, etc. I got all of my needed drugs and a new one Avastin (which they couldn't give sooner because it would cause complications being so close to recent surgeries.) I am doing the drug that made me so sick as an oral form this round...instead of through infusion to see if I can tolerate it better. So far, I think I am.
Right now, my hands are on fire...it feel like the pins and needles your foot falls asleep, but worse. It is constant, but putting pressure on my fingers (like typing, etc.) makes it MUCH worse. I have to wear gloves because of an extreme cold sensitivity on my hands and feet. I keep getting muscle spasms all over my body...and quite a few on my face. My cheek went crazy all morning and made me look pretty ridiculous. :) I can't eat or drink anything that is not warm or it feels miserable in my throat (even room temperature is too cold!) I am starting to get sores in my mouth...And I have the typical chemo symptoms of fatigue, nausea, and diarrhea. I don't say that to complain, but many of you want to know what it is like...so that is my experience today. Most of those are annoying...but tolerable. I am able to hold down food and liquid this time, so that is a HUGE improvement over the last round. I hope it continues!
Our prayers are being heard...and I WILL beat this cancer. Thank you for ALL of your support!