The truth is...I have known them since last Monday. The scan showed a good sized, irregularly shaped mass deep in my pelvic area about where my cervix used to be. Is it cancer? Well, there is no way of knowing for sure right now, but we do have to look at my history...and the fact that it just appeared out of nowhere since my last scan in January. What is next?... that's the big question right now. My doctors don't think my body can take another big surgery...and we know all of the chemos that I tried didn't work...because I have had multiple reocurrences in the last year. (I have had over 30 scans in the last two years...and they have NEVER seen actual cancer in the images...because I have an elusive type...so in all honesty...the fact that we see something came as a surprise and terrifies me. I have always know that IF they ever saw anything...that I would be in trouble!)
So where does that leave me? Well.. it leaves me with a lot of questions and uncertainty of what is in my near future...but even more FAITH...and hope...and an even stronger desire to kick cancer's butt! For today...I continue to LIVE!!!