Friday, December 3, 2010

Update...

This morning we are headed to the hospital for a quick surgery for Larry (NOT FOR ME!!!)  He is getting several kidney stones blasted in hopes that he can avoid problems in the future.  He has had 3 now and has at least 4 more hanging on his kidney.  We hope it goes well and that he will be back to normal quickly. 

We are returning to normal...though it is a slow progression.  I have short bursts of energy, but they seem to increase almost daily.  I even got to scrub my own house this week.  (yes..I was grateful to scrub bathrooms!)  I have to be REALLY careful because bending hurts, but it was nice to feel a bit more self sufficient.  I have been taking care of my girls each day on my own for a few weeks...which is AMAZING!  My youngest is glued to my hip and just keeps telling me how much she missed me and loves me.  My oldest is just making up for lost time with me.  She has a mile long list of things she wants us "to do" together.  We are going to have so much fun this month...I am so excited!

I was thinking yesterday about how much my life has changed over recent months and just was completely overwhelmed by how much better it has gotten.  I almost forgot about the side effects of my chemo...there were some miserable ones, but another was how I wasn't able to drink or touch anything cold.  That was hard over the summer...no cold water, smoothies, ice cream, etc. BUT.. With all of the freezing weather and snow I am feeling SO grateful that I did that during the summer, or I would have been in trouble. (cold things caused so much pain in my throat, hands, feet, or wherever it touched.)  Small blessings...but there are SO many.  That is just one of a million...but I am grateful I did my chemo in the summer.

I can't even explain how wonderful it is to be at home versus a hospital.  If you have never been there for more than a few days than it is hard to even fathom what I am talking about.  I hope you NEVER have to experience long stays there.  I am SO excited that I no longer have IV nutrition, a wound vac pump to carry around, or a chemo fanny pack.  I am so excited to NOT be connected to a constant IV pole.  I am thrilled to have been able to STOP taking all medicines except a vitamin.  I felt like I was in a medicine induced coma this past year and it is nice to be clear headed again.    I am so grateful that my vision has returned...because it kept me from reading for many months this year.  (Your whole body responds to extreme trauma...and my eyes were NOT working!) 

I am so grateful that I have been able to serve others a little bit lately.  It is amazing being able to be on the giving end again.  I am reminded that there are truly times and seasons for everything.  I hope that I can share some of the comfort and help that SO MANY amazing people shared with me.  I will never forget all of the kindness that was shown to my family this last year.  It is something that has changed me...and will be with me FOREVER!!!

And...I have to remind you that You are AWESOME...and I am grateful for YOU!  This blog has given me an outlet through all of this and has been an amazing source of support and strength.  Thanks for putting up with my ramblings, my sorrows, and for seeing me through this.

7 comments:

Laurene said...

I am so grateful that you are not a drug addict after all you've taken in this past year! We hope and pray that Larry does well with blasting the stones and that you continue to improve. Glad to know you are moving forward with enthusiasm and caution!

Auna Leigh said...

yeah! I am just so happy you are happy! That is enough for me! Merry Christmas Auna, Shanda is better! Now about that girls weekend.... maybe after christmas!

Aly G said...

Wow! You sound like you are doing so great! Crazy how your body can heal after all that trauma! I am so glad you are feeling good for the holidays!! xoxo

Chrystal said...

It was soooo.... AWESOME!!! to see you at the gym. I hope that you continue healing well and that we will soon be able to take beginner tennis classes again. Ha Ha I bet that you are still better then me.
:-)

Carol said...

Anytime you need anything just let us all know! Your blog gave me the streghth to know my life is not all that bad and stop being so selfish. Thank You for helping me!

Kim and Thad said...

This post just makes my heart smile! We couldn't be happier for you and your family! There is most definitely reason to rejoice in the ability to scrub bathrooms and many of us should take a page from your book and be thankful for the little things in life such as that! Our hearts are full with gratitude to Heavenly Father for your health and happiness and thank you for chronicling your journey through this blog so that the rest of us could follow along. You gave us the ability to grow through prayer, fasting, and thanksgiving through your journey! We love you! You are AMAZING!

Tracey said...

I truly could not be happier for you! I am so thrilled to hear you're doing so well and hope that December and Christmas are as much fun as you plan! It's amazing to think that so much happened in just a year. You are so tough. When I think of "fighting" cancer I think of you and it really was a hard fought battle but you were victorious! You really are amazing! Thanks for letting us share in your journey, we've been lifted up along the way!