This morning we are headed to the hospital for a quick surgery for Larry (NOT FOR ME!!!) He is getting several kidney stones blasted in hopes that he can avoid problems in the future. He has had 3 now and has at least 4 more hanging on his kidney. We hope it goes well and that he will be back to normal quickly.
We are returning to normal...though it is a slow progression. I have short bursts of energy, but they seem to increase almost daily. I even got to scrub my own house this week. (yes..I was grateful to scrub bathrooms!) I have to be REALLY careful because bending hurts, but it was nice to feel a bit more self sufficient. I have been taking care of my girls each day on my own for a few weeks...which is AMAZING! My youngest is glued to my hip and just keeps telling me how much she missed me and loves me. My oldest is just making up for lost time with me. She has a mile long list of things she wants us "to do" together. We are going to have so much fun this month...I am so excited!
I was thinking yesterday about how much my life has changed over recent months and just was completely overwhelmed by how much better it has gotten. I almost forgot about the side effects of my chemo...there were some miserable ones, but another was how I wasn't able to drink or touch anything cold. That was hard over the summer...no cold water, smoothies, ice cream, etc. BUT.. With all of the freezing weather and snow I am feeling SO grateful that I did that during the summer, or I would have been in trouble. (cold things caused so much pain in my throat, hands, feet, or wherever it touched.) Small blessings...but there are SO many. That is just one of a million...but I am grateful I did my chemo in the summer.
I can't even explain how wonderful it is to be at home versus a hospital. If you have never been there for more than a few days than it is hard to even fathom what I am talking about. I hope you NEVER have to experience long stays there. I am SO excited that I no longer have IV nutrition, a wound vac pump to carry around, or a chemo fanny pack. I am so excited to NOT be connected to a constant IV pole. I am thrilled to have been able to STOP taking all medicines except a vitamin. I felt like I was in a medicine induced coma this past year and it is nice to be clear headed again. I am so grateful that my vision has returned...because it kept me from reading for many months this year. (Your whole body responds to extreme trauma...and my eyes were NOT working!)
I am so grateful that I have been able to serve others a little bit lately. It is amazing being able to be on the giving end again. I am reminded that there are truly times and seasons for everything. I hope that I can share some of the comfort and help that SO MANY amazing people shared with me. I will never forget all of the kindness that was shown to my family this last year. It is something that has changed me...and will be with me FOREVER!!!
And...I have to remind you that You are AWESOME...and I am grateful for YOU! This blog has given me an outlet through all of this and has been an amazing source of support and strength. Thanks for putting up with my ramblings, my sorrows, and for seeing me through this.