Sunday, June 26, 2011

It won't slow me down...

But I should tell you that the pain I have been having the past few months has increased.  It is near constant, but often takes my breath away and completely stops me in my tracks.  I have had tests that are inconclusive.  A likely cause is cancer, but...it could be from extreme trauma to my abdominal cavity...a ton of surgery, boiling chemo poured in creating 3rd degree burns on every surface, iv chemo pumped inside, adhesions galore, more surgery, cancer...etc.  The pain is located in the same area where the fluid (ascites) has been building up.  It isn't as large as last sept when I looked so pregnant, but it is definitely there.    Please continue to keep me in your prayers.  I have felt the power of prayer and witnessed its miracles.  I continue to press forward with GREAT HOPE...and am living my life to the fullest each day.  I know each day is a gift...and that perspective has changed everything.   I have more ct scans and tests early in July.  For now, I am trying to gain strength and health so that my body will be ready if I need surgery again.  I hurt...but feel SO much better than I did 6 months ago.  I am not writing this to complain...just to keep you updated.  I'm still raising my own kids.  I'm NOT in a hospital.  I'm not on a feeding tube.  I'm not hooked to iv's.  I'm not on chemo.  And I'm STILL playing tennis.   I am so LUCKY!!!

11 comments:

Unknown said...

Shanda - I am always thinking of you, of your courage, of your strength as you continue this fierce fight...you are truly an inspiration to me, and I just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and that I am ALWAYS here for you if you ever need anything.

Unknown said...

Oops, that was me, Patt... :)

Megan's Mommy Blog said...

Shanda - I think about you often and include you in my prayers. I hope your pain disappears and you're able to feel completely healthy again. Your positive attitude always inspires me:)

Laurene said...

I am certain everything you are doing is helping to improve your condition. I was just pondering all the people who see you when you are out and about who would be so astonished to learn of your challenges! I am astonished! The phrase "mind over matter" is you to a "T"! Always in my prayers and a faithful mentor in trials! Thank you!

Charlotte said...

I'm so sorry. That is just not cool.

Halfords said...

I have been thinking about you. I will keep you in my prayers! You are wonderful!!

Tracey said...

I hope they find some answers soon so the pain can be fixed!!! We will be praying for you. We're heading to Utah right after the 4th of July and will be back later in July. We'll keep in touch to see about getting together!!

Lance and Caetie said...

We've gotten a little lax praying for you lately--we'll go back to being more vigilant with it! I just love your attitude, so inspiring!

Snigdha said...

Hi... This is the first time I am reading your blog. I am from India. You are such a strong woman... hugs for you... You will be in my prayers.

Susi said...

You are amazing. You are a warrior. You remind us how wonderous Heavenly Father is. You edify. You appreciate. You transcend. We are praying for you. We love you... Brad and Susi Woodworth

Seeker said...

Wow!! i'm always impressed by your strenght, you're powerful, I hope that soon you'll be completely fine again. Your life is like an inspiration for anyone!